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[emanation]

{ it's been a while since he last posted on here, and he honestly looks tireder, it takes a moment for him to recognise the video is recording and he'll start--finally offering a smile. it isn't a very big one, and a bit more sheepish. }

I saw Loki already made comments on another post about what happened, but I wanted to say sorry if I worried anyone. Both Annie and Loki already gave me hell for dying, no one else needs to. Really.

{ he takes a deep breath }

But I had been working on something before all that happened. I've been working with Harrison since there isn't exactly much in place to help prisoners actually re-engage with society once their time inside is up, so I've set up a Reform Program in collaboration with the police. I'll be the only one working cases to start, but if anyone thinks they could be a positive influence on someone's life and wants to make a difference, hit me up. Hopefully we can make this world a better place outside of just the darkness.

If you have any questions ask away, I'll do my best to answer them.

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[emanation]

{ the smile he gets is softer this time. }

It's not overthinking it, exactly. More that the friends I had back home would just smack me on the head and tell me to stop being an idiot.

[happydreamed]

I'm sure they're excellent friends, but I can't picture myself doing that, personally.

[emanation]

Yeah I can't imagine you doing that either. I guess they just all live by more of a 'tough love' mentality? But a-anyway... I guess I've just been working on things since I got back so I never really sat down to think about what happened.

[happydreamed]

I can't precisely criticize you, I threw myself into work just as much the last time I died.

[emanation]

It isn't necessarily that I'm throwing myself into it... I'm just behind schedule since that happened.

{ not thinking about it is an accident... at least in this case }

[happydreamed]

Is dying not sufficient reason to take a break?

[emanation]

I mean I didn't get one back home either... There wasn't time.

{ isn't that more of a reason to take a break now????? }

But there are people who don't believe some of these people deserve a second chance. I don't want to leave it too long in case something else happens to prove them right--does that make sense?

[happydreamed]

...I can certainly understand that reasoning... But please remember to take care of yourself as well. There is always more to do to help people, but those who care about you don't wish for you to neglect your own wellbeing.

[emanation]

{ thankfully, he does look at bit guilty at that, his eyes drifting down much like a puppy when it's been caught doing something bad. }

...Sorry. You're right, I probably shouldn't be putting myself second but. It's kind of the way I've been for... a very long time.

[happydreamed]

Long-held habits are difficult to unlearn - but not impossible, with support.

[He believes in you, Ezra...!]

[emanation]

Y-yeah, exactly. I'll give it a shot. At least at times like these when we aren't fighting for our lives, I'm not great at thinking if I see people in danger so I can't promise then but--one step at a time, right?