colchismagecraft: (Let it burn)
Caster ([personal profile] colchismagecraft) wrote in [community profile] ellipsanet 2023-08-18 12:06 am (UTC)

yes that is
an awful lonely heavy feeling
its hard to see beyond it

but i cant not remember

in my case pushing forward is the only chance i have of reclaiming that happiness
however much i have to fight and whatever magics i have to call upon that is all i can do
keep going as long as i can hold my manifestation together


[She...hated fighting. The Holy Grail War, the Holy Grail itself and the Master-Servant system that allowed others to trample over her will, and hated jumping into worlds such as this one, so far from home- but it was all she had. It was the only way she could ever hope to reclaim her happiness.]

perhaps people only care so far as their voices are heard and so long as they have someone they can point their fingers at

i have always said that the naive little girl i once was died the moment the gods twisted her heart but
i wonder if part of her is still here somewhere

she would be horrified if she could see that she became a witch mired in darkness like myself


[In the last world she'd been in, she saw an illusionary version of her childhood self- an illusion who had said as much. Was...part of that young Princess still sleeping inside her, all this time? Medea had long thought she had disappeared.]

they sought to cling to the symbol of a hero
whilst in my world they condemned me as a symbol of the evils they suffered

i couldnt go back


he promised me everything
i was
ii was foolish to ever believe a word he said

alone and with nothing despite everything after all of it was taken


[She still remembered those painful days at the end of her lifetime, where she wondered the world alone as a true witch-

Medea took a moment to write down the intel he provided into her notebook- that was definitely useful!]


i see thank you
finding people to trust with such a thing is difficult isnt it
have you been able to find reliable allies


i have no intention of making a pact with anyone yet but if you need the support of a servant whilst yours is out of action then
you have my number
you are welcome to call on my power


[Not a formal pact- he already had a Servant, after all, and Medea was too paranoid to forge one with anyone immediately- but she could at least look out for him in Napoleon's place.]

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