yes that is an awful lonely heavy feeling its hard to see beyond it
but i cant not remember
in my case pushing forward is the only chance i have of reclaiming that happiness however much i have to fight and whatever magics i have to call upon that is all i can do keep going as long as i can hold my manifestation together
[She...hated fighting. The Holy Grail War, the Holy Grail itself and the Master-Servant system that allowed others to trample over her will, and hated jumping into worlds such as this one, so far from home- but it was all she had. It was the only way she could ever hope to reclaim her happiness.]
perhaps people only care so far as their voices are heard and so long as they have someone they can point their fingers at
i have always said that the naive little girl i once was died the moment the gods twisted her heart but i wonder if part of her is still here somewhere
she would be horrified if she could see that she became a witch mired in darkness like myself
[In the last world she'd been in, she saw an illusionary version of her childhood self- an illusion who had said as much. Was...part of that young Princess still sleeping inside her, all this time? Medea had long thought she had disappeared.]
they sought to cling to the symbol of a hero whilst in my world they condemned me as a symbol of the evils they suffered
i couldnt go back
he promised me everything i was ii was foolish to ever believe a word he said
alone and with nothing despite everything after all of it was taken
[She still remembered those painful days at the end of her lifetime, where she wondered the world alone as a true witch-
Medea took a moment to write down the intel he provided into her notebook- that was definitely useful!]
i see thank you finding people to trust with such a thing is difficult isnt it have you been able to find reliable allies
i have no intention of making a pact with anyone yet but if you need the support of a servant whilst yours is out of action then you have my number you are welcome to call on my power
[Not a formal pact- he already had a Servant, after all, and Medea was too paranoid to forge one with anyone immediately- but she could at least look out for him in Napoleon's place.]
no subject
an awful lonely heavy feeling
its hard to see beyond it
but i cant not remember
in my case pushing forward is the only chance i have of reclaiming that happiness
however much i have to fight and whatever magics i have to call upon that is all i can do
keep going as long as i can hold my manifestation together
[She...hated fighting. The Holy Grail War, the Holy Grail itself and the Master-Servant system that allowed others to trample over her will, and hated jumping into worlds such as this one, so far from home- but it was all she had. It was the only way she could ever hope to reclaim her happiness.]
perhaps people only care so far as their voices are heard and so long as they have someone they can point their fingers at
i have always said that the naive little girl i once was died the moment the gods twisted her heart but
i wonder if part of her is still here somewhere
she would be horrified if she could see that she became a witch mired in darkness like myself
[In the last world she'd been in, she saw an illusionary version of her childhood self- an illusion who had said as much. Was...part of that young Princess still sleeping inside her, all this time? Medea had long thought she had disappeared.]
they sought to cling to the symbol of a hero
whilst in my world they condemned me as a symbol of the evils they suffered
i couldnt go back
he promised me everything
i was
ii was foolish to ever believe a word he said
alone and with nothing despite everything after all of it was taken
[She still remembered those painful days at the end of her lifetime, where she wondered the world alone as a true witch-
Medea took a moment to write down the intel he provided into her notebook- that was definitely useful!]
i see thank you
finding people to trust with such a thing is difficult isnt it
have you been able to find reliable allies
i have no intention of making a pact with anyone yet but if you need the support of a servant whilst yours is out of action then
you have my number
you are welcome to call on my power
[Not a formal pact- he already had a Servant, after all, and Medea was too paranoid to forge one with anyone immediately- but she could at least look out for him in Napoleon's place.]