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un: Eve 🔪; video

[ the video opens to a large, serpentine beast with a wolf's pointed ears pulling back from the camera, having apparently started the recording via booping the phone's screen with her snoot. she flicks out a forked black tongue once, then lays her head down on her paws and says slowly: ]

What do you do when you feel like garbage, and you can't do anything to fix why? When you've just got to wait it out.

...I don't know how long I'm going to be waiting, so. The more ideas the better.

[ a beat, and then she adds: ]

Thanks.

[ —before reaching out to tap the phone again, this time with a paw. animal lovers, enjoy that brief full-screen shot of pink snakewolf toebeans before the feed cuts. ]

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...I don't listen to music much. Not that I don't like it, just... the players we had for it really weren't portable? So I'm not in the habit.

[ a little thoughtful ]

I like what they play where Choco-chan works though. And some of what's in video games I've played. ...Maybe I can figure out how to get some of that.

[MK smiles and nods.]

Music players and the internet. I can put something together for you. If you want. You could ask the owner of the cafe what he plays here? Maybe he has a CD or just a playlist? He could send it to you and you can put it on the music player.

...I'd like that. Thanks. And James probably can help me get whatever he plays one way or another.

[ there's a little bit of movement in the background— not a full wag, but the suggestion of one. ]

You're welcome.

[He smiles and nods.]

That way you can...relax isn't right but do what you need to. And then if it changes, just follow that. You know what you need. You just gotta listen to it.

...I can try, anyway. I don't... trust myself a lot right now.

[ a heavy sigh ]

Now I know to at least try to ask myself what's up, though. Didn't even think of that.

Yeah. I forget to do that a lot too. Or I get all up in my head and forget that I got good instincts.

Is it because of the mindfuckery stuff or something else?

Definitely the mindfuckery. It...

[ she whines, quietly, and then looks embarrassed; the Snivy makes a fussy trill and glares at MK before she sighs and tugs it in to cuddle against her front. ]

I'm still figuring out exactly what got fucked and how, but. It's kind of like... you know how if you look in a mirror, you recognize yourself? Without thinking about it. You don't have to look at your hair or eyes or whatever and compare them.

It's like that's gone. But for... how I feel. How I think. So I have to go compare what I'm thinking now to shit I've thought before to figure out if anything's weird. Or— not me.

[MK makes an apologetic look at the Snivy and swallows. Sorry little guy. He didn't mean to.]

That has to be hard. Not knowing if you're you or not you. Or just not normal you. Maybe if you follow what you need, you'll feel more like you. Or at least a little bit more. I hope so, anyway.

Yeah. It's... uh. It's definitely easier when I get mad. Or I'm doing things, mostly? Things where I've got habits built up. So maybe I just have to try to do more of the things I usually do.

—you do have good instincts, though. Maybe put it on a t-shirt or something? Or one of those inspirational posters or whatever. So you have reminders.

...and don't mind Mint, he's just. Really fucking fussy right now. Slapped a book out of my hands earlier because he thought it was upsetting me, it's nothing personal.

Maybe we both need shirts or posters. I'll get one if you do too.

[He chuckles and smiles.]

He's really protective of you. That's sweet. I should get a Pokemon one of these days. Just never got around to getting to the vending machines.

I'm pretty sure we can get custom posters. I like t-shirts with funny shit on them, but you'd have to look down at it all the time if you're gonna read them.

[ ...the Snivy puffs his chest out and looks up at Eve. look, see, he's TOTALLY doing a good job! ]

They're pretty great. I got one because I didn't have any experience with pets? So something that could tell me what it needed or if something was wrong seemed like a good idea. ...Also helps that he can kind of handle both of us if I'm having a bad day.

[ she licks the top of Mint's head. A GOOD KID. ]

Just... be careful around the vending machines if you go. Since they're in the underground mall. ...I got jumped coming back from there.

Posters it is.

[He smiles and gives a thumbs up to the Snivy. Good Pokemon.]

Oh I know how dangerous it can be. I ended up in the secret casino down there. Maybe we should use the buddy system down there? Probably better to not go alone, right?

"Secret casino..."

[ she shakes her head ]

Probably a good idea, yeah. I got a guardian broach in case I had to go back over there alone, but going in a group's better.

I've seen those in the store. I kinda got one on me all the time. Magic tattoo from the Fairy Queen. Got X-Ray vision too.

Oh, that's useful... I did some research, and I thought about getting that for my other power? But having the broach is good enough for even my paranoid ass. There are other powers I can't have except through the tattoo, so... I'd rather pick one of those.

Oh you can. It's a whole list. Like lightning powers, light powers, and some other stuff. It was a big list. I think you can still ask for one from her.

Yeah. ...I'm definitely going with the lightning, and retrocognition or door creation seemed like they might be cool? But...

I'm probably going with singing to heal. I just have to ask Kantera about it first.

[He smiles and nods.]

Those sound like good choices. Pretty cool to sing to heal people and just throw lightning at stuff?

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/HANDWAGGLES THE INTERVIEW THREAD INTO THE TIMELINE

Time is just a big ball of wibbly wobbly timey wimey...stuff anyway.

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