un: DYNAMIGHT, text

[boombam]

[Katsuki had been turned into a vampire a few days ago, and he's just been SO bothered by it the whole time since. No matter how many times his friends try to comfort him and reassure him that being a vampire doesn't change who he is as a person, he feels so...... evil. And he hates it.

He needs to know he's not alone in this. So that's why he's making this post today.]

So. Vampires.

Those are apparently a thing.

Anyone else dumb enough to get turned into one or is that just me and my stupid ass?

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un: gaine

[sangreine]

I suppose I can't say that I know how you feel since I was born this way instead of turned, but I kind of do.

Every time my memories reset, I had to come to terms with being what I am all over again. I still struggle with it. And you've had so much change in so short a time, too.

[boombam]

It's not easy to come to terms with. Whether you're like me and you've been human your whole life, or you don't remember that you were a vampire to begin with. I don't think it matters. It sucks either way.

I think I'm starting to accept that I can't fight what I've become. And I hate that I can't.

[sangreine]

Fighting it won't do anything but make you and everyone who loves you miserable, trust me, I tried.

The only thing to do is what you've always done: try and use your abilities to do some good. That's the best I've got.

[boombam]

I know.

[Every single person he's talked to has tried so hard to help reassure and comfort him. He knows that seeing him in denial was hard for them... it'd be so much easier if he could just accept everything and think that being a vampire was some really cool boon.]

I'm trying my best. I've started writing down what abilities I've gained since turning and what I can do with them to help my fighting style. There's pretty much nothing that will make me feel like being a monster is okay. But at least I have a one-up on my enemies now.

Super strength and speed are extremely useful powers. I was always jealous of Deku and his Quirk, because it gave him those two things.

[And now he has them for himself. Maybe.. if he relates to Izuku like this. He can come to actually like his new powers...]

[sangreine]

Your best is more than good enough. I think it's okay that you're not okay with being a monster. It's okay if you never are. I wish someone had told me that.

I'll help you figure out the ropes of your new abilities, if you like. Like I encouraged you to listen for heartbeats while we were off killing them.

[boombam]

I'd be an idiot if I refused your help. You're such a pro with your abilities. Which makes sense, now that I know you were born with them. I thought you were just someone who picked up on shit quick.

And... thanks. Everyone keeps telling me that it's okay to be a vampire. But it feels like shit forcing myself to act like it doesn't bother me. I needed to hear that it's fine if I'm never happy to be a monster.