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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[dreamsofwings]

[ Despite her dying...? ]

Then it's not absolute right? Even trying to kill people, even hurting them on purpose, doesn't guarantee they stop loving you.

Whether you deserve it or not doesn't really matter.

[nilhilistic]

But it should matter. It has to.

How can it not matter?

[dreamsofwings]

I realised recently that it doesn't. Other people don’t base their feelings toward you on what you deserve.

I tried as hard as I could to make people hate me and they still didn't. Still don’t. I know I don’t deserve to have them care about me but they do anyway.

So who does decide if you're worthy of love then? Why does it matter?

[nilhilistic]

[ how frustrating. ]

So there is nothing to be done?

[dreamsofwings]

I don't know. I think it's just up to other people how they feel about you, no matter what you do.

Why are you so focused on this anyway?

[nilhilistic]

It is something I have to contend with.

[dreamsofwings]

The idea of worthiness? In whose eyes? Your own or someone else's?

[nilhilistic]

Both, I suppose.