( text | un: revanche )

[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

Comments

text; un: dking

[nomither]

[ david thinks long and hard before he starts typing a response. this is a question he's asked himself countless times before and after his time in the fog. ]

i think everyone deserves to be loved
whether or not you deserve to keep it is another thing

[nilhilistic]

What makes you think everyone deserves it?

un: gaine

[sangreine]

[ Goodness ]

Not especially. But I've come to believe that's not up to me.

Whether someone else loves me is their decision. And if they do, it's a great gift. I could try to deny it, and I have, but all that's done is hurt them. I've decided I can't live with that.

[nilhilistic]

[ it would hurt nel. but nel is not here so it really doesn't matter. ]

So what do you do?

un: flynnscifo | Text

[bravestknight]

I'm not sure how to answer either of those questions.

Are you okay?

[nilhilistic]

Of course I am. I am no different than I was before.

un: white heron

[mistsplitter]

What a thought-provoking question.

I believe everyone deserves go be loved and cared for, but for myself to be worthy of it... perhaps not.

I find that I am blessed and lucky to be loved. I do not question what is given to me, just that I do not expect it from others.

I suppose that makes my beliefs rather contradictory.

[nilhilistic]

You don't seem all that difficult to love. Is there something that makes you feel unworthy?

text; un:jaeger

[dreamsofwings]

No. I hurt people too badly to deserve it anymore.

But love doesn't really work that way. People don’t stop loving you easily.

[nilhilistic]

If you try to kill them, they'll stop.

[ winning logic, right here. ]

text; un: shigeru

[mysophobic]

I don't...think I'm really deserving of it, personally. I've never really thought I would experience anything like that back home, so it's sorta just carried over to here.

I'm not sure what makes someone worthy. But I like to think that maybe I'll be able to be worthy of someone's love one day.

[nilhilistic]

How would you accomplish that?

[ how do you make the worthless worthy? ]

un: douglass

[privateeyed]

my personal answer to both is maybe
but no matter how i answer ultimately it isnt up to me
other people determine that shit no matter what i have to say about it
pain in the ass am i right

[nilhilistic]

It is deeply frustrating.

Text | un: Pantsonpyre

[localweirdo]

Why do you ask?

[nilhilistic]

Why wouldn't I ask? Is this not something people wonder about?

text; un: alear

[divino]

[ Oh Rafal... ]

Are you asking because you don't think you deserve it?
I used to think the same myself, but everyone back home taught me people
can change and be loved while learning to loving others at the same time.

[nilhilistic]

[ he bristles for a moment, unable to help himself. this is, after all, the person nel loved. ]

I don't see why. Everyone loves you.

text | @pinkroses

[faezel]

( Wow, that's ... quite the question. And it's only made her want to learn more about why he feels the way he does. )

Forgive me for answering your question with a question, but ...
What's made you ask this? Are you feeling love yourself, are you conflicted by it?

[nilhilistic]

I don't think I have felt love for anyone. I don't think I'm particularly capable of it.

[ that's not true, of course. he had loved nil. but nil hadn't loved him back, not in the same way.

there is always someone else in a person's heart. who would make room for rafal? ]

un: 🐉, text

[kerontribution]

Some people will love you even if you are the worst. So worrying about deserving it is a waste of time.

[nilhilistic]

I am not interested in being loved.

un: byletheisner

[fishfearme]

Love is an instinctual emotion that doesn't follow moralistic ideals such as 'deserving' or 'worth'. It'd be like asking if you deserve to feel hungry.

Someone will love you at some point in your life. It's how things are.

[nilhilistic]

Ridiculous. Love requires some logic. You do not love everyone and there are criteria to meet.

un: dreadlord

[frostscythe]

'Love' as a concept no longer matters to me. And for those to whom it remains a priority would find nothing worthy of it in me now. I had not given it much thought before, but I suppose it is better than desiring it and knowing you can never have it.

[nilhilistic]

So it has never crossed your mind?

un: disaster (aka he is so fucking anon right now)

[badsunrising]

No.

Being a decent person makes someone worthy of love.

[nilhilistic]

Decency is subjective.

un: tophats

[vivens]

[ you guys okay here? ]

Personally, I don't believe there are any criteria to work off of to decide who is deserving of love or worthy of it. Everyone is deserving and worthy of love.

And those who say otherwise likely have been hurt in some way.

[nilhilistic]

No one has hurt me.

[ this is a lie, but it is a lie rafal does not realize he is saying. to him, all his sins are his fault and his fault alone. he refuses to let anyone take ownership of them. ]

[flowerpowerful]

I don't think worthiness really matters. Peoples' hearts will want what they want. But I do always hope I make people happy, so I guess in a way I am working to deserve it.

[nilhilistic]

Surely you of all people are deserving.