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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[divino]

[ Oh Rafal... ]

Are you asking because you don't think you deserve it?
I used to think the same myself, but everyone back home taught me people
can change and be loved while learning to loving others at the same time.

[nilhilistic]

[ he bristles for a moment, unable to help himself. this is, after all, the person nel loved. ]

I don't see why. Everyone loves you.

[divino]

They didn't always. They wouldn't have if I hadn't proven that being a fell dragon doesn't mean I'm evil. It doesn't mean the same for you. Everyone just has to get to know you better.

[nilhilistic]

It has nothing to do with being a Fell Dragon. They love you. They love Nel. They loved Nil.

And I am nothing like any of you.

[divino]

What makes you think you're different?
If you didn't care about anyone or anything, you wouldn't have spent so long
waiting for your sister to reawaken nor would you have come looking for us after.

[nilhilistic]

I have still done more harm than good! And if I never find this vaunted compassion, what then?

Would you not stop me?

[divino]

Stop you from what? Hurting others here?
What reason would you have to do that?

[nilhilistic]

Do I need a reason to cause harm?

[divino]

Why cause harm for no reason then?
What would that bring you but more grief and anguish?

[nilhilistic]

Perhaps that is who I am. That is who I've always been.

[divino]

I don't believe that.
You wouldn't have come to help us restore our own world if
you were that callous.
You could have left us all alone to endure the worst from Sombron's machinations, but you didn't.

[nilhilistic]

That does not make me good.

[divino]

Of course, it does.
You made that choice when you could have easily done nothing.
You could have let your sister die too, but you stayed by her side, waiting.

There is good in you, Rafal.

[nilhilistic]

Even if it is, it is worthless now.

[divino]

How did. you reach that conclusion?
Being here doesn't change who or what you are.

[nilhilistic]

I already know what I am. I have done nothing, proven nothing. What is the point of goodness if I cannot do that.

Nil would have been ashamed of me. I couldn't amount to him or Nel or anyone. I deserve to be a speck on a person's heart.

[divino]

You're too hard on yourself,
and even if you think the worst of yourself now,
I know Nel doesn't feel the same.
I don't feel the same either.

We have our differences, but I care about you and consider you an ally.
Maybe even a friend one day.

[nilhilistic]

A friend? Me?

[divino]

Is that so hard to believe?
We have a bit in common, and I know we'd get along well.

[nilhilistic]

I've never had friends of my own before.

[divino]

Now you have one,
which is far more than zero.

Maybe you'll make more the better you get to know our
allies from Elyos.

[nilhilistic]

I do make conversation just fine.

[divino]

Great! I'll invite you to our next outing.
I plan on cooking all the fish that's been sitting in my freezer.

[nilhilistic]

Do you plan outings often?

[divino]

...This might be my first.
I'm not good at hosting parties, but I'm trying to get better at them so
none of our allies from Elyos feel lonely after being here so long.