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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[nilhilistic]

But you overcame it.

You . . . let people in.

[sangreine]

"Overcame" is a big word when it comes to this. I haven't overcome that, not really. I was told that I have no right to push people away for their own good, since that doesn't respect their choices. And I agree with that. If I have to let people choose to be close, I might as well treat them in a manner they're worthy of.

Nothing will stop me from believing they deserve better than me. I don't decide that for them, that's all.

[nilhilistic]

[ perhaps that is the happy middle. all anyone can ask for. ]

I see.

[sangreine]

Believe me, I wish I could say I overcame it. But I'm all too aware of how cruel it is to allow myself to be close to anyone.

If I had a better answer for you, I'd certainly offer it. Despite what you've done, in my eyes you're worthy of at least a chance.

[nilhilistic]

And I should make use of it?

[sangreine]

That's your call. But I hope you do.

[nilhilistic]

Thank you.

[sangreine]

Of course. And if you should want any help or support, as consider me a volunteer for as long as I'm awake.

[nilhilistic]

I will remember that.

[sangreine]

You offered to stick around and wait for me to wake up.
Nothing I'd hold you to, by the way, especially when I'll have to way to know it.

If there was something you wanted that was equivalent, I'd offer it to you. But I'm stuck piecemealing my thanks out of much smaller things, so. [ Her potential assistance in this matter is what she's got for now. ]

[nilhilistic]

It is still meaningful.

[sangreine]

I'm glad it's worth something, even though it's not much by comparison.

I suppose this is my way of saying that anything else you could need help with, consider my hand raised for any of them.

[nilhilistic]

Comparisons are unimportant.

But thank you.

[sangreine]

I like to try to give back as good as I get. Rarely am I successful, but once again, the trying matters.

[nilhilistic]

Fair enough.

I look forward to it.