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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[sangreine]

Good, I'm glad. Pick one of the natural sites you've found and we'll go see it. It'll be a nice memory for however long I have left to remember it.

[nilhilistic]

You don't have to make it sound so dire.

[sangreine]

How exactly should I make it sound?

[nilhilistic]

Not like that?

[sangreine]

[ Thanks that's helpful ]

I'm not sure how to make it sound less dire. It's the reality I've been living with for a very long time, different words won't change anything.

[nilhilistic]

It is the reality you believe in.

I thought you would try to keep an open mind, at least.

[sangreine]

[ It's not like her beliefs effect her life cycle, but... ]

I'm sorry. I didn't realize it bothered you.

[nilhilistic]

[ hm. perhaps it did. ]

Everything is subject to change.

[sangreine]

I guess we'll know in a week or so.

If you prefer I be less fatalistic in my language, I can do that.

[nilhilistic]

I think that is . . . best.

[sangreine]

[ But she's allowed to have a moment of misery and pessimism after she gets killed, right? ]

I'll do my best to remember. Just give me a little leniency, it's hard to break a habit that's millennia old.

[nilhilistic]

That is fair.

[sangreine]

Good, then.

Out of curiosity, does it trouble you when others say they don't deserve to be loved? It bothers me despite feeling that way about myself. That's one reason why I answered.

[nilhilistic]

I suppose I would find it ludicrous to hear it from others, but I don't know their reasoning.

[sangreine]

You know mine. At least some of it. [ She didn't destroy an entire world but she certainly destroyed enough of one to get partial credit. ]

Is it ludicrous in my case?

[nilhilistic]

No. And I would not say so.

[sangreine]

Odd as it might sound, I find that comforting. Usually everyone wants to argue with me.

[nilhilistic]

Not everything needs to be debated.

[sangreine]

And yet they always seem to.

[nilhilistic]

A part of caring, I suppose.

[sangreine]

Then I guess I hope one day you'll argue with me.

[ See, she just implied she'll be awake long enough, she can learn! ]

[nilhilistic]

That seems feasible.

[sangreine]

[ since this isn't in person she lets herself laugh ]

I'll try to sharpen my wit for whenever you're ready to argue. Surely there's a book of some kind I can use to prepare.

[nilhilistic]

I doubt a book would help much.

[sangreine]

That was a joke. I never expect to win that particular argument. But I suspect no one expects to win it against me either, if you're right about why they have it.