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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

Comments

text; un: dking

[nomither]

[ david thinks long and hard before he starts typing a response. this is a question he's asked himself countless times before and after his time in the fog. ]

i think everyone deserves to be loved
whether or not you deserve to keep it is another thing

[nilhilistic]

What makes you think everyone deserves it?

un: gaine

[sangreine]

[ Goodness ]

Not especially. But I've come to believe that's not up to me.

Whether someone else loves me is their decision. And if they do, it's a great gift. I could try to deny it, and I have, but all that's done is hurt them. I've decided I can't live with that.

un: flynnscifo | Text

[bravestknight]

I'm not sure how to answer either of those questions.

Are you okay?

[nomither]

because it's fucking shitty being without it
and it can change you so much

[nilhilistic]

[ it would hurt nel. but nel is not here so it really doesn't matter. ]

So what do you do?

[nilhilistic]

Of course I am. I am no different than I was before.

[nilhilistic]

[ oh, that's interesting actually. ]

It changes you?

[bravestknight]

Okay, just making sure.

I don't know if we deserve to be loved, but people love others anyway.

[nilhilistic]

Do they?

[ sounds fake. ]

un: white heron

[mistsplitter]

What a thought-provoking question.

I believe everyone deserves go be loved and cared for, but for myself to be worthy of it... perhaps not.

I find that I am blessed and lucky to be loved. I do not question what is given to me, just that I do not expect it from others.

I suppose that makes my beliefs rather contradictory.

[nilhilistic]

You don't seem all that difficult to love. Is there something that makes you feel unworthy?

[nomither]

it can make ya one of the best people out there
or one of the worst

and i've seen both

[sangreine]

[ And Haji isn't here, and yet it somehow still does matter. But then maybe the fact that he's dead and Nel isn't is the kicker. Who can say? ]

I respect those around me enough to let them make that choice for themselves. If they say they love me then I try my best to be be worthy of it, even if my best doesn't feel like much, even if it feels like I never will be worthy. The trying seems to matter.

[bravestknight]

I mean I love someone, but even if I didn't, I would still think that person is deserving of love.

[nilhilistic]

Best or worst seems rather subjective. How is that real change?

[nilhilistic]

Why?

[nilhilistic]

But how do you make yourself worthy?

[bravestknight]

Because I think that everyone deserves being loved. Can I say that I love everyone? No.

But, I can't judge whether a person or not deserves it myself.

It's kind of complicated.

text; un:jaeger

[dreamsofwings]

No. I hurt people too badly to deserve it anymore.

But love doesn't really work that way. People don’t stop loving you easily.

[nilhilistic]

Anyone can judge anything. That you won't is a matter of personal choice.

text; un: shigeru

[mysophobic]

I don't...think I'm really deserving of it, personally. I've never really thought I would experience anything like that back home, so it's sorta just carried over to here.

I'm not sure what makes someone worthy. But I like to think that maybe I'll be able to be worthy of someone's love one day.

[nilhilistic]

If you try to kill them, they'll stop.

[ winning logic, right here. ]

[bravestknight]

Do you judge if people can receive love or not?

[nilhilistic]

How would you accomplish that?

[ how do you make the worthless worthy? ]