ellipsanet | CLEAR THE AIR FOR NEW YEAR

Hello, everyone~! ⭐

I'm Starlight ✨, here with a public forum post to end the new year with! It's called a confession booth!

Basically, this is your chance to confess something you have been holding back to start the new year off with a clean(er) record!

Oh, and every comment will be automatically anon when posted, so no need to play with settings or anything.

And of course, have a wonderful new years, everyone 💫 I hope to see you more come next year.

Oooh and one more thing. Please don't make any lewd comments on here, okay? If you need to get flirty with your anon buddies, you can make your own post. Much love~ 💕

OOC: This is a mini-minun fun event to end the new years with! Starlight herself won't make any comments or reply to anything. This comment is a free for all, threadjacking is probably a given, please mark if you'd rather avoid getting threadjacked!

Please also keep everything SFW, as this post won't be locked. ~~You can make a secondary post of anon flirting and sexting if that's something you wanna do!~~ A NSFW version has been posted.

Of course any potential triggering confessions should be warned about in the header.

Anon isn't OOCly on, but ICly it's always on. You'd have to hack the settings to be posting with your username.

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[Closure. At least that, if nothing else, will be granted to her too. Maybe in a way, dying first will be a mercy. Wouldn't it break her to see Paradis Island destroyed, her people suffering and dying? Or would King Karl's blessing keep her strong and unmoving until the end?]

I'm glad you could find at least some peace. It's the hardest thing to find when fate makes us suffer.

[She considers asking for the other person's contact information, but it seems like they, like her, are purposely being vague about their situation, merely trying to find and share some solace in this anonymity. Whoever you are, thank you. I hope you can somehow feel happy again.]

I don't deserve peace, really, but if that's what I find, then I'm in no position to reject it.

I hope you can find that peace too. Here I am talking about what we do and don't deserve, but it doesn't really matter, does it? Life isn't fair for anyone.

I'm grateful for the time that I've had here. I don't ever want it to run out.

[It's certainly true that life isn't fair. Surviving as such already comes with no shortage of hardships, but nothing could cause humanity more suffering than humanity itself.

Much as Frieda would like to tell her conversation partner that everybody deserves peace, it'd be a hypocritical thing to say as someone who needs to atone for many centuries of bloodshed and has trouble accepting the same well-wishes from them. Besides, it's that last line that especially catches her attention.]

Would you want to stay here for the rest of your life if you could?

[Since she never questioned her need to return home, that possibility didn't cross her mind at all until now. Abandoning one's homeworld forever... even knowing of her impending fate, she could never do that. What cowardice would it be for the ruler to run and leave the people to their fate? She has to face her destiny, even if she's scared.]

Maybe it's selfish of me, but yes, I would. I have everything that I want here.

My world is a cruel place. In the interest of anonymity, there are things I won't share. Suffice to say there isn't much to go back to.

I have a duty. I realize that by saying this, I'm essentially abandoning that role. Like I said, it's selfish. But I can't help it. If I'm honest with myself, and honest with you, then yes, I'd stay forever.

[So this person, too, has a duty to fulfill back home... despite how much their words resonated with Frieda, she didn't want to jump to that conclusion. With it being confirmed, her first reaction is sympathy - immediately overshadowed by indignation. Her conversation partner is well aware that their flight from their duty makes them a selfish person, so she doesn't need to tell them, but it still angers her. Are you a ruler, too? Did you want to escape your rightful fate?

And yet...

What if she, too, didn't return home? Would her family be killed regardless? With the Founding Titan gone, their roles as successor candidates would be null and void. Would that save them?

There's a very long pause before she responds. With how jumbled and tangled her thoughts are and how little of them she's willing to share, she wouldn't be surprised if her conversation partner abandoned the thread... but what they're talking about is important to her.]

What do you think will happen if we never return home? At the Research Centre they said that they'll return us to the point in time they took us from once this world is saved, but what if we grow old and die here?

[Will they be retroactively erased from their worlds' history? Will they just be gone with no explanation? Will the universe replace them somehow? But she shouldn't even wonder about these things. Ultimately, it won't make a difference. If her family won't get killed in the attack Historia told her about, they'll certainly die later. The outside world will make its move on Paradis Island, no matter what form it takes. There's no escape from atonement for her people.]

I can't be certain about this, but from what I can tell, this world and our worlds exist in totally separate dimensions.

If I had to guess, I'd say that, regardless of how long we stay here, once our time is done, we'll be returned back to the same point in time from which we came.

Why call myself selfish, then? It doesn't quite make sense, I know. But I do feel some sense of urgency still. People in this world are brought from all different times and places, even if they're from the same universe.

It's hard to make sense of. Maybe it's just easier to believe that me being here has no affect on the people back home. But I can't be sure.

Our being here SHOULD have no effect on those left behind, assuming we'll always be returned in the end. I thought that perhaps there was a way to avoid that, but you're right, chances are that even if we died of old age here, we might still be reset and returned.

[It's pointless for them to wreck their heads over this, really - it's out of their hands.]

I'm still uncertain of how to best handle my situation, but talking to you has been helpful. I hope things will get easier for you too, somehow.

[There's still that nagging thought she's been pushing aside and denying... the idea that with the foresight she now possesses, she might be able to use her time here to prepare for the confrontation with her killer. But how could she possibly justify that? Resisting the world's retribution would run entirely counter to her ideology of peace. Besides, as in the case of her hypothetical erasure from her world, nothing could prevent the eventual extermination of the Eldians. She could only buy them more time.]

In that case, I'm glad that I could be of some help.

It was nice talking to you - whoever you might be.

It was nice talking to you, too.

[As nice as it can be to talk about such painful matters. Part of her still wants to ask for the other person's contact information - it doesn't sit well with her to leave someone alone with this kind of situation -, but again her hesitation holds her back, not wanting to come across as overly curious or overbearing.

So, she lets them go, sincerely hoping that they'll be able to overcome their pain.]

CLEAR THE AIR FOR NEW YEAR

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