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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[nilhilistic]

That is what it led up to.

That is my crime.

[mistsplitter]

Did you achieve your goal?

[nilhilistic]

I failed. And I was forgiven.

[mistsplitter]

Who forgave you?

[nilhilistic]

[ ah. ]

. . . My sister.

[mistsplitter]

Was she involved in what you did?

[nilhilistic]

No. She would never do something like that.

[mistsplitter]

There is a lot more to this story. Though I do not wish to ask too many details if it is painful to talk about.

I cannot condone actions like that, but it does not mean you do not deserve love. Perhaps not from those you have hurt in the past, but your family, and those you may meet now.

What caused you to ask this to everyone?

[nilhilistic]

It was . . . worth scrutinizing.

I'm not sure I believe it, but still.

[mistsplitter]

I cannot compare your situation to what the people of Inazuma had gone through. I do not know all the details of your experiences.

Pain, big or small, however, is still pain.

Our leader and our Archon hurt many people in the past, including members of the Yashiro Commission and my family. She closed our borders and hunted people who owned Visions. Those people had their dreams, their personalities, and their will stripped from them, and they became empty vessels of people.

[ Perhaps her wording may be a bit too poetic describing what happened. ]

The Vision Hunt Decree has ceased, however, and peace is back in our nation. Our leader remains at her seat, as things should be.

[nilhilistic]

Despite what happened?

[mistsplitter]

Yes.

The people do not forget, of course. But we are all working together to rebuild our nation.

[nilhilistic]

How?

I don't understand how I was forgiven. I don't understand what I'm meant to do with this life.

[mistsplitter]

I cannot give you a proper answer that represents everyone.

Love is a powerful thing, however. It gives you the ability to listen, to respect, and to understand. It makes you mad, it makes you do all sorts of things— both good and bad.

In the same way that others cannot fully fathom why it is someone would destroy a world, or perhaps take people's dreams and aspirations from them, other individuals also forgive, learn to move forward, no matter how painful it may be.

I pray you will find your own answer.

[nilhilistic]

. . . I will consider it.

[ he does, however, private the thread for a moment. ]

Are you all right, otherwise? I heard about your brother.

[mistsplitter]

[ Oh! She... wasn't expecting a question like this at all. She's touched, but she also feels bad that he was worried for her. ]

I wish I could say I am, to alleviate one's worry. I am fine, but also not.

There is a weight in my heart at times, and fears I never knew I had have begun to manifest. I must do what I can to keep these emotions at bay, especially when life goes on.

[nilhilistic]

It is a difficult thing to contend with, to lose a sibling. I'm afraid I do not know of a good way to combat it.

[mistsplitter]

I fear more for Ayato's state. When I think of what he has gone through, how he may relive it in his memories, it pains me greatly.

I wish I knew how to help my brother.

[nilhilistic]

[ hm. ]

Which season is he? And yourself?

[mistsplitter]

He is Autumn. I am Spring.

Why do you ask?

[nilhilistic]

Autumn has some unique magic. Perhaps that can help.

[mistsplitter]

What sort of magic?

[nilhilistic]

You can form telepathic connections or help with their dreams. It's more advanced than what we start off with, but it is possible.

[mistsplitter]

I'm afraid I do not have that ability. Ayato may be able to, but he would be the user, and not the recipient of the magic.

Although I must confess, I fear this may not work as well as it should, as Ayato does not sleep much to begin with.

[nilhilistic]

Why not?