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[nilhilistic]

Do you think you deserve to be loved?

What makes you worthy of it?

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[nilhilistic]

How?

I don't understand how I was forgiven. I don't understand what I'm meant to do with this life.

[mistsplitter]

I cannot give you a proper answer that represents everyone.

Love is a powerful thing, however. It gives you the ability to listen, to respect, and to understand. It makes you mad, it makes you do all sorts of things— both good and bad.

In the same way that others cannot fully fathom why it is someone would destroy a world, or perhaps take people's dreams and aspirations from them, other individuals also forgive, learn to move forward, no matter how painful it may be.

I pray you will find your own answer.

[nilhilistic]

. . . I will consider it.

[ he does, however, private the thread for a moment. ]

Are you all right, otherwise? I heard about your brother.

[mistsplitter]

[ Oh! She... wasn't expecting a question like this at all. She's touched, but she also feels bad that he was worried for her. ]

I wish I could say I am, to alleviate one's worry. I am fine, but also not.

There is a weight in my heart at times, and fears I never knew I had have begun to manifest. I must do what I can to keep these emotions at bay, especially when life goes on.

[nilhilistic]

It is a difficult thing to contend with, to lose a sibling. I'm afraid I do not know of a good way to combat it.

[mistsplitter]

I fear more for Ayato's state. When I think of what he has gone through, how he may relive it in his memories, it pains me greatly.

I wish I knew how to help my brother.

[nilhilistic]

[ hm. ]

Which season is he? And yourself?

[mistsplitter]

He is Autumn. I am Spring.

Why do you ask?

[nilhilistic]

Autumn has some unique magic. Perhaps that can help.

[mistsplitter]

What sort of magic?

[nilhilistic]

You can form telepathic connections or help with their dreams. It's more advanced than what we start off with, but it is possible.

[mistsplitter]

I'm afraid I do not have that ability. Ayato may be able to, but he would be the user, and not the recipient of the magic.

Although I must confess, I fear this may not work as well as it should, as Ayato does not sleep much to begin with.

[nilhilistic]

Why not?

[mistsplitter]

He is almost always working.

[nilhilistic]

All humans need sleep.

[mistsplitter]

Yes. And he does, but it is a lot less than how much sleep one should have.

I understand that he has much work to do, but I always try to remind him to take a break and rest, too.

[nilhilistic]

What is he doing all the time?

[mistsplitter]

Reviewing contracts, making proposals, signing papers, amongst other things.

[nilhilistic]

That sort of work can be delegated. There is no reason for one person to do all that much.

[mistsplitter]

Some can be, yes. But there are other matters that require his own personal attention, especially at home.

His work here, however, does not lend him the help of others just yet. While he is a leader in Inazuma, he is a regular employee here. Perhaps over time, when he gains more benefits, he will have a secretary.

[nilhilistic]

What job is this anyway?

[mistsplitter]

In Inazuma, he is the Yashiro Commissioner.

Here, he plays the role of an ambassador. Bridging the connection between otherworlders like us and the locals.

[nilhilistic]

[ hm. ]

Is that an official position?

[mistsplitter]

Yes, it is. Ayato's official title in this world is Otherworldly Ambassador.

[nilhilistic]

. . . I see.